AS TIME GOES BY!

Well obviously someone didn't like what I said in the previous blog!! lol..but seriously I don't care whether you like it or not..it's how I feel and no one can tell me otherwise! I tried to be nice and even tried to continue being your friend...but there are just too many lies and I really don't know how to be your friend and not sure if I want to! I still care about you..how can I not? But you are not my responsibility and I am not obligated any more to be there for you...a friendship is a 2way street but there has only ever being 1 way traffic with you! So I choose to keep my distance for now and when you are ready to be a proper friend then I will reconsider my position!!!

2 months on since that last post and gee how things have changed. I look back and I do see the pain and anger and sorrow in what I wrote..but the wounds were still fresh at the time..and now wounds are healing fast with distraction and growth...and oh my how I've grown (put on 12 kg since that last post and I feel bloody great....wanting to put on another 10..so I've join the gym!!!) I can't say I'm a completely different person, but I can definitely say I'm a much happier one....I do have some very special people in my life, some old and some new....and without them it would have been a true struggle - so thank you very much especially to DJW (my life would have been a mess without you!!)

Survived my 1st single Mardi Gras and you know what?? It ain't so bad!! lol...albeit I'm still not big on going out and party...it was nice to see others having a great time and enjoying themselves to exhaustion!!! Maybe next year I'll do something fun and get on a float or something..but this year I was happy to just watch from a high vantage point and not get wet..lol

Hopefully in a few more months time..I can post on here that I've achieved my goal of gaining a further 10kg and have the body I've always wanted..I'm so sick of the "you're so lucky, so skinny" comments...if only people knew how hard it has being for me to put the weight back on!! I think it is equally hard for people on 2 ends of the scale - too big or too small!!